Happy in Life

My husband recently spoke to a friend who said that I looked happy and at peace with life. It was a blessing to hear that statement because it is true. I have had a lot of bumps and bruises in this journey of life. I have wore a lot of hats and often too many at once, to the point, I wore myself out. I have learned the blessing of healthy boundaries and the ability to say no.

I realize many truths about myself such as the fact that I am a people pleaser and that even if something is good and Godly, it doesn’t mean that I am called to it. I no longer desire a spotlight or to put all of my life on display. I no longer worry about who follows me or if I am gaining numbers.

I am at peace with staying faithful daily to what He calls me to; the faithful tasks in the quietness that comes with no notoriety. I allow Him to open every door for me and I am at complete peace for those that remain closed. My heart is to always advocate for the Lord and to be a witness of His grace, mercy, and love. I don’t need the multitudes for there is beauty and less chaos in simply touching those He places in my path. Some days I am blessed to simply embrace the beauty of others that God has destined to minister to me.

I no longer carry the weight bearing opinions of others as I focus primarily on God’s knowledge of my heart and the destination He has placed me on. I have matured a lot as seminary school and the connection to others on similar paths has enriched my life deeply. The heaviness of fitting into someone's ideology of me and what I should be to satisfy them, no longer hits my heart.

I am aging, the fine lines are making their debut. Menopause has knocked on my door and is wrecking havoc on me, but for the first time in my life I have finally landed on loving myself, flaws and all. I am in competition with no one when it comes to relationships and service to our Heavenly Father. I have learned to embrace those that love me and focus on the joy they bring. I no longer chase after anyone in hopes to win them over.

Life is a vapor and there is no going backwards.

I have wasted so much time chasing the wrong things, worrying about the wrong people, and in a sense, being lost in my call. I am thankful for the clarity that I now have and the grace to continue the plan He has always had for me.

Learning the importance of self-care is liberating and while I have not mastered it yet, I am chugging forward. Part of my self-care is to make time for what I love doing and that is sharing my heart through words and writing, and this is a part of that.

I pray this helps someone who reads it. It is easy to chase a thousand things but what good is it if we loose the ability to be grounded in His love and peace? What good is it if we fail to love and minister to the one set before us; the very one He desires us to minister to the most.

Be blessed today and every day! Much love, Terri